I love you.
I love when you smile. I love when you see me through the window and wave.
I loved today so much. I was a stop on Unit 1's Halloween costume tour. Everyone in costumes came by to say hi. Mommy bought me a big blue fuzzy monster costume. I love it too.
I love helping the nurses clean my tubes. I'm hooked up to a lot of them lately, but that's OK. I am starting to breathe better. The doctors stopped worrying about sending me to the ICU today.
I would love not to have leukemia. I would love to leave my room because that would mean my cold is gone. I don't love the vaccum they stick up my nose to suck out samples of snot.
I love seeing daddy on the phone. I love giving him kisses. I wish he weren't so sad. Mommy says he's sick too. That's why he can't be here. Daddy says he misses me. I miss him too.
Mommy noticed a big rash on me. Even though I only had my last injection of T-cells on Tuesday, the doctors think I might have graft versus host disease. They say that's what they wanted to kill the leukemia, but they didn't expect it now. They're worried it's from my first T-cells, not these new ones, which were 10 times as much. They're worried what the new cells will do if a tenth of them were enough to cause GVHD.
I saw mommy writing an email to the hospital people. She was crying. She told them I love to swim. Wow do I love to swim! I haven't done that in more than a year! She said she'd like to take me to Disneyworld, to the zoo, and to play with friends. I'd love all of that! Why would mommy be so sad to write that?
It's OK, mommy. We can always cuddle, even if I don't get to do those things. I'll love you no matter what happens.
I'll love everybody.